more to the story..

I guess I need to go on with my story and get to the point... Jason and I started dating and had several off and on times between the December of our junior year and the first semester of our sophomore yr in college.  Our off and on times were mostly because he knew me better than myself a lot of the times and he would call me on it.  He could see that I was "needy" and always wanted to analyze why!  Once we got past trying to figure out how to date your best friend, we really were a great couple.  We visited several colleges together and had decided to both go to MTSU but when I got a scholarship from Austin Peay, we changed our plans.  The summer after we graduated I hurt him so badly that things began to change and were never the same.  Our first semester of our freshman year was hard because we both kept hurting each other.  The second semester, he joined Sigma Chi and I pledged Alpha Delta Pi.  And we stayed broken up for most of that semester and that summer.  That summer, I did a lot of thinking about what I wanted and I decided that was Jason.  But we could not continue hurting each other... if we were going to get back together, it was going to be for good.  We made plans one night to talk about us and what we wanted, however, he never showed up to meet me.  While I was waiting for him, he got asked out by another girl and they ended up together for the next 2 years.  I was heartbroken... I wish I could say I handled it well, but I didn't. I did many things I regret and dated guys I shouldn't have.  All of this time I could have been spending time with my girlfriends but I didn't.  It was as if I always needed a guys attention.  I am so sorry for the good times and memories I missed out on back then.  I totally understand why God wants us to "guard our hearts" because once you have given a piece of your heart away, you cannot ever get that back.  It was February of my sophomore year and I was at the Sigma Chi house for a party.  And that is when Chip asked me out.  Chip lived in Knoxville at the time and he had come in to Clarksville (where his family is) to celebrate his birthday.  At first I was a bit hesitant because the 2 other times I had met him he was a bit "sure of himself."  The first time being when he & Norm had come into town for Brother's Day and they ran into me & Jason (who was a  pledge at the time).  And when he found out I was an ADPI alpha, he proceeded to tell me how long he had dated the president of the sorority so he knew all these "secret things I didn't).  Which wasn't true but he still irritated me.  The second time I ran into him was the following homecoming when he had again. come into town for the party.  I was there with a friend because they guy I was dating at the time was working.  And because I was there with a friend, he took it upon himself to turn up the charm.  Which he's good at when he tries!  We did finally dance a dance together....the Cowboy ChaCha to the song Neon Moon by Brooks and Dunn.  So it was several months before I ran into him again and like I said I wasn't so sure about him but he asked me to meet him back at the Sigma Chi house the next night for the Super Bowl party and I agreed.  Of course he was in Knoxville but he asked me if he could call and he did a couple of times that week.  He also asked me if we could go out the following weekend if he came into town and I agreed.  I remember it not being a real date because he took me to another party but at least we got to talk & know each other better.  It was about this time I realized I had totally misjudged him.  He was actually a pretty incredible guy and that scared me... not like other guys at all!  It was either the following or the next that he asked me to come to Knoxville and go up to a chalet in Gatlinburg with his friends Norm & Robyn.  Norm was his roommate and Robyn also lived in Clarksville.  The weekend was amazing...I was falling pretty hard.  At this point I brought him home to meet my parents and of course they loved him. Dad offered "to leave a ladder outside my window" so you can come get her!  It was also about this time that Chip got a promotion to the Murfreesboro store... we were so excited!  No more driving back and forth to Knoxville!