I'm a loser!

Okay, I'll admit it. I suck. I couldn't even get my nerve up enough to go to the Block Party Friday night. I slept several hours on Friday trying to "prepare" my self for that night and then I started packing our things to take to Chip's parents' house. My nerves were quite stressed when I had to stop to take Shelby to swim team practice. By the time I got back at 5:30, we needed to be leaving and I was a wreck! I really didn't want to go and I still didn't have everything together. So I got the kid's things together and sent them to Clarksville with Chip. We had to take them to see his parents even if we weren't doing the block party - we had already promised his parents and the kids. So I laid down, because that's what I do when I'm stressed, and I slept until 10:30pm when Chip called and woke me up. I got up and ate something, locked up and went back to bed until almost 9 the next morning. That is how I avoid dealing with things that stress me. I am in my happy place when I am sleeping. :) So Chip tells me that Norm and Robyn didn't go to the Block Party either because they had a sick child but they would meet us for lunch. And his friend Todd that he was excited about seeing, was no longer coming. So I tell Chip to tell them that we'd meet them for lunch and we would still go to the parade after. While I am driving to Clarksville I am telling myself not be nervous. It's just Norm and Robyn and their kids - what's there to be nervous about!? It actually went better than I thought it would. It was great seeing them again. We convinced them to come to the parade with us and I'm glad we did because it helped me not be quite so nervous. Of course there wasn't anything to worry about - I didn't know anyone there! The kids enjoyed walking around the campus. Cole even wanted an Austin Peay hat and Shelby got a shirt. Cheesy huh!? Well, I am disappointed in myself this weekend. I let my nerves get the best of me.